there is so much to say, yet i cant seem to find out where i should start....

i have never really felt a difference between being single vs being in a relationship. it wasnt an obligation and i never felt like it was restricting me. serious relationship? ha! im not that bitter because i am going on to bigger and better things. there is so much i want to do with my life and it cant be done in the middle of kansas at a community college or a ku. no offence. in fact it gives me more motivation to be successful with school and with my life. not only for comforts but also for internal satisfaction that i showed everyone up. for everytime i am rejected it makes me want to suceed so much more. its like a fire was lit up inside me. i am through with settling. my standards and expectations are high and far, i deserve SO MUCH MORE! this was the best thing that could have ever happend to me.  i was restricting myself, settling for what was there instead of looking out to what i could have. i will do so much better. i dont owe you any favors. i made a mistake. i should have trusted my first thought but what will be will be. so instead of depending upon my parents for support for the rest of my life im going to make my own way. no ambition no drive to succeed sorry im better than that. ive been traveling for about 2 weeks vistiting family all over the country and it feels so much better than sitting in the same old place doing the same old things. what was i doing all summer? one thing is for sure: im doing something with my life and its going to be great. im beautiful smart driven opinionated strong powerful. i love and respect myself so i am able to love and respect others.

i love to fly 

it has just been one of theose days that you wish you could crawl into a corner and either die or disapear which is almost the same thing, right?

~jaq

Movies!!!!

yes it has been a while but i have been stalking the movie plexes lately to bring you info about these two movies...

Pirates of the Caribbean: dead man's chest- so jack sparrow, william turner and the lovely elizibeth return for the second intstallment of this soon to be trilogy. so jack sparrow is running out of time with the mythical davey jones so he must find a way to barter his freedom. however william turner is blackmailed by a mysterious british naval officer into stealing jack's famous compass which it turns out points to anything your heart truely desires. it is a race against time for everyone to the chest of davey jones. yeah that was a very rough summary sorry. okay now for my critique: it was ok. not as good as i expected to be, in fact the story really didnt go any where and there are way too many things that go unexplained. yes it is full of excitement and lots of laughs but it was missing that spark that i loved about the first one. anyway i have to wait another year or so for the third one bollocks! staring orlando bloom, keira knightly and johnny depp

You me and dupree- a once party animal decides to get married and settle down with the love of his life.... and his best man? dupree is the loveable bachelor that never grew up has trouble holding a job and can turn an entire house upside down. however for all his faults there is no one anybody could count on more in a tough spot. this is the wedding crashers of this summer!! it is hilarious, lots of laughs and embarrassing moments that will make you pee in your pants (not literally). staring owen wilson, kate hudson, michael douglass and matt dillon.

up coming flicks

Accepted- after being rejected by every school he applied to, bartelby decides to create a fake university to statisfy is overbearing parents. this is for everyone that had ever been rejected by one too many colleges. it looks hilarious and it is a perfect movie to see just before school starts. staring justin long, featuring lewis black

John Tucker Must Die- the most popular guy in highschool, john tucker, is the most avid player as well. so his ex girlfriends decide to play him and ruin his life along with it. this movie is packed with funny gags and hilarious pranks it is a must see with friends. staring ashanti, penn bagdley

Talladega nights: the ballad of ricky bobby- born to be in the fast lane, nascar driver ricky bobby must beat a former teammate. needless to say, this is the most anticipated comedy of the summer. will ferrell.common! even if nascar isnt in your blood (which isnt for me) i still suggest it as laughing has been proven to lengthen your life, if you want to live longer that is. lol. plus ferrell also co-wrote the screen play, bonus!! staring will ferrell, john. c reilly

miami vice- spoof off the 80s tv series but it is way more action packed, not for the kids folks. 

sorry thats all for now might update later but enjoy

have fun in the sun

~jaq 

my fourth of july was freaking AWESOME!!!!!!

went to jenna's house out in paola with a huge stash of fireworks. we took this huge box of big stuff i dont know what they are called (see thats how much i know about blowing stuff up) and we shot them up in the air and on the ground. there were huge craters in her gravel driveway when we were done and let me tell you construction cones go really high when the right firework is placed under it plus those things are really durable! adn i almost killed jenna adn joe... more than once yet they are still willing to take me out to worlds of fun for my bday on saturday! yay

tehee

oh and the new pirates movie is comming out tomorrow

GO SEE IT!

~jaq